Living Water

No This one should be really quick cuz i'm tired and I gotta get up in the morning damn okay I went through my routine it was nice I worked up a sweat and it was good I really really liked it and felt like I did a good thing tonight any way I gotta go ta bed night

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I feel uneasy about my past it's because I have to retake a couple of classes, ( one I withdrew from, and one I got a C in, and it's my major) so I gotta retake'em and I guess that's fine I mean that's what the summer and the winter semesters are for, I just gotta do it and the plan is to damn get a head lol not get behind so I'm gonna get ahead and retake my math class at some point lol that's the thing about college you have to handle your own business like all that ish is on you especially if you have the kinda mama I have even if you live at home you gotta do it all for self, luckily I have friends that do help me out wish I had some more gay friends but that's another talk show for another day, well this was just a quick little post because I have to go out right now any way till next time

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Tonight I worked out and I was satisfied, lol after two workouts of not being satisfied I had a cute little sweat going, and my body feels worked out. Afterwards I had a big cup O apple juice it was nice and refreshing, gosh it's cold here lol there's such a draft by my couch, any way I did my crunches and sit ups but with my sit ups I did something different, I stuck my feet as far under the love seat as they would go and then I did them, it was much better than just trying to do them by myself, and I felt I got a really good work out in the sit up area by doing that. Also, I did that thing where you lift your legs like straight up in the air and hold them there, it helps with gettin your mid section together. Any way I felt good or feel good rather right now as I right this. Well just had to get this entry in till next time

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It is cold and I do not enjoy that I'm just sitting here my dad said he would take me to the mall today but he's pushed it back to tommorow (Monday) lol I really wanted to go today but whatever he said he wasn't feeling well so oh well. I made a downelink profile after seeing it on Noah's Arc: Jumping the Broom, ooh and my season 2 hasn't come yet and I will be having a problem if it doesn't. But back to downelink the guys there are cute, like cuter than anything I've seen in my area on bgc (I don't have an account there anymore) but they seem to not be online often like on bgc maybe they feel downelink is lame or whatever oh and like I don't get much play there like on bgc. Maybe it's because they're not always on or maybe it's because they not feelin me I don't know but any way I'm outta here just have a case of the Sunday Boreds and Lonelies, need to meet a nice guy who's just for me. Oh well until next time

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This one was a little better I skipped a day I know bad boy lol it was christmas day so yea you know how it went the food was flowing I was acting up on that day but it's all good I worked out last night which was the 26th of Dec. I did my usual but the same problem faced me last night I didn't feel so worked out I hardly even broke a sweat I'm not sure if that's because it was cold in here or what but I didn't so I'm changin up my regimine I'll find some new excercises to add in there and up my time so that things can be a little more vigorous each night, and I'm glad that I'm starting this over the break, cuz it's getting me used to doing it each night so when school starts back everything will be together and my body will be used to doing this every night lol well I'm about to write my personal blog lol that's not about excercise tee hee hee i'm about to have some gumbo and write my other blog maybe not in that order any way

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Okay this is from that day when I just did it really quickly again I didn't feel that I got much of a work out in, it was cool though, I did my regular ish but I didn't do my breathing and stretching tho lol and I felt like that contributed to it oh well I think I need to set a standard limit of when I stop working out cuz I dont' have a standard limit I just do it and then stop so that's all for this entry until next time

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Lord knows that I am lonely lol especially on nights like this I have my family and am thankful for that but I just wish I had a man to spend Christmas with or for him to spend Christmas with me I just feel like where is he where, I tried to upload a video to youtube last night and it kept failing to upload, now I'm like I guess it happend for the best, everything has a reason, ooh I can feel the strain all in my damn neck from when I raise it to do crunches. Lmao I'ma be a strong necked mothaf*cka huh? Lmao I'm a fool a little Christmas humor. I really hope I can get out of here, I need too I really do any way this was just a little short post for Christmas Eve, and to tell how I feel tonight

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Well for this workout I didn't do so much cuz I worked out early that day, sooooo my body was already on some I'm tired but I still did my whole routine minus my stretching and breathing, cuz I had already done it earlier, so my body was already loose. I did my regular, I did squats, I did sit ups, crunches, and my punch reps oh and some thigh and arm work I mean it was simple cuz yea I wasn't really just feelin it cuz my body was already like hey you've done this today lol and oooh I feel it like when I stretch my legs and thighs lol and if I stretch my arms up and I can feel it in my stomach. I fell into the trap of I wanna see results lol lord knows I only been doin it for 2 damn days and I already I wanna damn see something, just like an American, I think it's cuz I feel it workin so I wanted to see it but it is what it is I believe that I will be able to see it boom lol any way I had some Mcdonalds for lunch lol and some Gumbo for dinner, also had a piece of pie for desert sad sad sad. Okay it's not sad cuz you're supposed to eat meals and ish and snacks for if you don't whatever you do eat your body will hold on to it making you GAIN weight this is the opposite of what WE want out of this life lol any way it's Christmas Eve and I will be working out tonight and on Christmas

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Okay so this is from earlier today when I couldn't go out cuz they wanted to go to the mall or whatever well any way I went through my stretch routine then I was like before I get truly started I need to create a work out playlist so I did, I put all the same types of music and ish on that I like to listen to when I work out, I had My Beyonce, My Janet, My Nicki Minaj, all of it lol it had me PUMPED! LoL especially the Janet, she has this new song called Make Me and I love it it's so old school Janet, it's jumpy it's energetic the perfect workout song lol but yea my body feels the workout lol like I felt it more from last night than I do the one I did like earlier and like I like to feel it afterwards cuz that means something happens like when I stretch certain ways I feel it like my squat work has me feeling it all in my ass and that's new like I've never felt strain there or anything but I guess it's cuz I've never done workouts that will work there any way I got my Noah's Arc Jumping The Damn Broom, and My Beyonce I Am Cd and DvD so basically ain't much gettin done in the next few days. Oh Ps (oooh I just stretched my legs and felt it all in my thighs) but ps I drove up to the Slotckies (I know that's not how you spell) and got a chicken ceasar salad wrap and ate it varatiously lmao my stomach was growing though I mean I didn't eat breakfast, all I had was some orange juice, they made some hot dogs for... breakfast I guess I didn't wanna eat that so I waited and had that salad wrap it was delicious. Any way I'll be working out again tonight so I'll get to doing another workout diary

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Like I gets no respect around this piece lol No Respect In Tha Streets, but naw I was supposed to go to school today to help doc. freeman but when I woke up this morning at 11:00 to leave out and get on bus at 11:46 my mamma decided that she needed to start getting ready, she needed to use the bathroom, she needed to take a shower, she needed to do everything before me cuz she had to be at the mall by a certain, oops naw she didn't, maybe cuz she had to catch a bus at a certain time ooops naw she got a damn car that ha damn ass can rev up at any time but I couldn't get in shower before her sooooooooooooo I have to damn wait till next bus cuz by the time her damn ass get out and get done 11:46 is unreachable for everything I had to do. So when I get ready to go out to next bus it's already damn passing by. I blame Ha damn ass for everything cuz I coulda been at the damn school so instead I'm sittin here all dressed the f*ck up with not a damn place to go now aint this some bullsh*t. Think I'm finna go work out again, you'll see an entry whenever I do

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Okay So I want to make this really quick cuz it's really late lol 2:51 to be exact. So this evening I did some squat work and some stomach work. As I type this i'm watching "The Thing" (Old horror movie about this alien organism that could imitate other forms of life) so any way it's interesting and I may have to complete watching it even though I just wanna get to bed. Boom so any way wow when I was doing the squats I could feel it all in my behind area and in my inner thigh area man I know that I am going to feel this ish tommorow but oh well lol such is the price of getting fit so I began with a stretch, I stretched my legs, arms, back, then I breathed a little bit. I turned on some music then I began with my squats (by the way my music strategy is I just put on the music of bad bitches that look good so it reminds of how I want to look and the things I want to wear, and how I want to be able to move my body, listening to them as I work out motivates me, the music also serves as a good all around pumper upper) then I moved on to do some crunches and situps then I did some arm strength work, then it was back to squats and I ended with situps. I concluded with a stretcch much like the one in the begining, finally I breathed in and out (ps, while doing concluding stretch and breathing I switched my music to soft and calming music) and I was complete with my excersise for the night, the same will probally happen tommorow night but I'll blog about it (oooh I also did a video lol but that's for these blogs I'll talk about it in my personal one)

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Okay, so I worked out last night or early this morning rather and I can feel it in my body, which I like, it's cool I just feel kinda tired now. I went to bed soooo late that I slept and slept and slept and slept. I was supposed to get my ass up and go to the school house but you know I didn't lol I just don't know I was sleep and then it got too late it's 4:14, lol which is way to late to get on a bus and go to that school lol then to bring my damn ass back home, hell no it'd take way too long that bus ride is a mutha. So I suppose I'll go tommorow since lord knows I won't be able to help again until next week after christmas but hey you know how it goes i'll still be on break so it's no biggie. My daddy was NOT happy about my D+ in english and really wasn't worried about the rest of my grades. Hmm Oh well I know how it goes and will be better prepped to get ish poppin and vibrating as Alexys says for the next semester. I talked to Moses & Tyquan, and they said they were really trying to get ish together so they could come to TSU this upcoming semester so that's wonderful and Moses invited me out for New Years' Eve so I'd love to do it cuz I don't think I've ever been out to any New Years' Eve events so this'd be my first lol I was saying on my truthBtold video blog that I wish I had someone to kiss when the clock strikes twelve and we are ushered in to the New Year but hey it is what it is, it'll happen when it needs to happen. I just wish it would happen sooner. But I'll leave with this... like people say He might not come when you want him but he's always right on time and that's something that I believe. So until next time

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Another lonely night curled up on the couch with some good movies wowsers *SideBar* (I get so lonely, can't let just anybody on me) any who I just watched uhhhhhhh I can do bad all by myself, Tyler Perry really needs to change up the game I mean I love him and all but damn I mean what change it up do something a little different cuz around the middle of the movie you start being able to understand exactly what's gong to happen. Any way lets focus on my being lonely. SideNote (I like the new Anthony Hamilton song, lol and I usually don't like him) any way yea I'm feelin like one youtube personality named xem van adams lol he's like, "Oh i'm just waiting for my husband and I'm ready to be in love" and I'm like the same way but I gets no love from the right dudes, as of now no dudes like it's been a long dry spell. I been single since like when.... like last Febuary. Man that's some ish. And like there was this guy named TR___ and I felt like he was givin me all types of play but then he kept goin on to talk about how he had a girlfriend and all the bullsh*t that comes with it cuz she doesn't do him right and all this but I think I already posted about the problems with that but I stopped feeling for him because I felt like he wasn't worried about me sooooooooo what am I supposed to do? Sit around and wait for him to call or contact me or some ish like that. As much as I feel i'm ready for love, and as much as I feel like or I liked him or whatever it's not even my steelo to hound someone of be the bugaboo charcter. If that means I sit at home on late Saturday nights and write in this thing instead of waking up early on Sunday mornings to tell about how happy my man made me when we were together on that Saturday night then so be it. So I think I'm outta here, I'm about to go watch Drag Me To Hell and possibly order the Beyonce I Am Dvd, oh and ps. I realized today when I was at the barber getting my hair lined up how much I love to be taken care of and pampered in the way of like getting nails done (never done it) or getting eybrows waxed (dide it once) or stuff like that, like I love getting taken care of like that lol but any way like always to any one who's read this

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Today I went out and we got my sister's Christmas present which was a phone so that's good, then I came home my mom kinda tried to discourage me moving out, telling me that I should wait until 4 years basically when I graduate college girl stop you think I gone stay in the house with you, My Sister, and My Grandma who never leaves and goes ANYWHERE girl stop I be done burnt every bridge in that mothaf*cka. Any way I needed to vent this out and let it out ohhh and she keeps trying to use my f'in laptop like there's a desktop here this ain't for your convienence, it's for MINE, sh*t. I bought some movies from the bootleg movie guy in my apartment, I felt like uggg when I was doin it cuz I usually try to separate myself from the usual hood activity and that's usual hood activity lol but he was nice and I suppose it's all good, he said I was a good guy cuz I told him he could keep the change (5$ dollars) from the 20 hey it's all good in my book he said the next time I bought a movie from him he'd give me one free, so that's pretty cool, then he went on to talk about clothes that he sold and I was just thinking No lol now it's one thing to buy 2nd hand dvd's but 2nd hand clothes is another. Any way I am outta here for now just needed to tell it all you know get it out lol

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I am sitting here on my couch at 1:02 in the morning watching Tales From The Hood lol seems kinda crazy but I like ish like that, cuz that's just the kinda dude I am. Any way my throat hurts well it doesn't hurt but my voice is like scraggly and it's rather annoying but I was just watching some youtube and feeling like wow I can't wait to be able to spread my wings. I need to kinda rant a little about Tales from the hood lol Spike Lee more so, he was so genius with his movies and I absolutely love it, it's like he always found a way to infuse what was relevant in black America at the time in his movies. Most people are so used to the default way of doing things that they can't appreciate that but I absolutely do. Any way, I miss Moses & Tyquan, we definately need to get together and do something soon. I miss Anya, she's in New York right now living it up on her Christmas break, and I need to be looking up pieces and all that good stuff and writing speeches for debate, which I guess I'll use my saturday for after I've done the errands that I need to do with my mom ( I Think, I'm not Sure, We Might Be Done) Any way I believe that I will sign off now and get to bed.

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I am so happy to just be doing new things today. I am now writing this on my new laptop and it feels great, I got it yesterday. Today I am going to Go work for my Doctor Freeman, have a great breakfast, and doing a video for youtube, and not all in that order. The Youtube part leads me to my next point, see I'm starting the show back up with a whole new revamped theme. Instead of being a show it won't be so much a talk show as a video blog where I can express myself, now I'm doing it through youtube because I like interacting with other youtubers that's super coolio to me. Any way I am being so blessed by so many new opportunities in my life I've been offered new things through debate and it is sooooooooo great. I'm just happy about the advancements in my life and I just felt the need to share that with my blog today :)

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Okay so yesterday and today I felt really good. Not just exceptional about the current circumstances but good about the future. See my plans that I made a few months before about moving on with my life and moving out are coming to fruition. One thing at a time of course but it's all moving at good pace. I got my Brother Lee on the right path with his life and now he has a clear and consise plan about what he needs to do to be a successful and productive member of this society. I need to see how I can work out my money situation, cuz i'm trying to get a job on campus so hopefully this can work out for me and I'm praying that Lee's situation works out the way that we need it to work out, but either way we're going to make it happen cuz it's just time, it's truly time and there are only a few things holding us back that will no longer hold us up either way the chips decide to fall. But all this being said I have to study for my final final exam which is tommorow and I know that I shall do well on it THIS I KNOW.

Damn it's been a long time since the last time I wrote anything here but hey I believe it's time. Right now as of 11:13 on this Tuesday, I thank GOD, I thank GOD for giving me so much to offer to another human being and to this world. I thank GOD for everything that he's given me, sometimes I feel overwhelmed by his grace and mercy, especially since I've begun my studies at Texas Southern University. I'm begining this thing again because last night my comp. messed up thankfully a chunk of it was saved, but what I was saying was I just feel thankful for all that I have. I was feeling restless like I wanted to be alone, and at the same time wanted to be around people, or lonely rather; maybe you know how that goes, maybe you don't but any way there is a problem on my mind that strikes me now and really won't leave. There's this guy at my school and I just have a huge crush on him and I don't even know exactly why I mean he's not the only fine smart guy i've seen in my lifetime or at this school even so why is he different what was it about him. The only way I can explain it is, I think it's in his energy. There's only one age old problem.... He's straight, now I usually don't even look at straight guys as far as trying to pursue a relationship because I know it could never be, no matter how fine or smart I percieve you to be, but this guy, ehhh I don't know he's given me signs but he's never really around enough for anything to happen, and all over his facebook is this crap about women and oh lady's want so much but don't know how to handle a guy who wants to treat them right. He went into describing the woman he wanted and I was thinking he's not gonna be happy cuz I believe he really wants a man, lol and yea you guessed everything he described was right up my alley but hey he'll have to come to his own realizations, now whether or not he comes to this realization in time to get Muah is an entirely different story... hope he does though... in any case I've got to keep pushin and movin right along in school. Ya know this whole situation reminds me of Noah's Arc, the T.V. Show, they've dealt with similar issues who knows any way I'm signing out, until next time


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